The human mind is an amazing thing, really. One day you're thinking everything is going to be okay and that your life is going forward amazingly, and the next day you're thinking why is everything spiraling downwards. I never really thought things are always going to be okay, no, but I never thought one day outta nowhere I would suddenly feel so empty and dissatisfied by everything going on in my life.
When I read about my posts that show how happy I am, I cannot seem to recall that feeling anymore. It's just like everything vanished from my mind. I wonder why?
Personally feeling like every layer of what made me myself stripped away from me and leaving me into an empty mess is like living a nightmare. You know you're not happy, you're not feeling anything, but you have to keep pretending that you are until one day you just can't take it anymore. This seems to be a constant reoccurrence in my life and now, I'm trying to heal again.
Leaving things that drag you down is very empowering, you know? It's so relieving to finally living for only yourself and not someone else. To finally picking that thorn that has been stabbing you for decades.
And now, we heal.