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"if i killed myself tonight, the stars would still appear, the sun would still come out, the Earth will still rotate, the seasons will still change.. so, why not?"
of course not.
do not tell me you never think about how your two best friends would stare blankly at your usual spot in your seat, thinking that it was so quiet without you and there will be no one to make snarky comments anymore and how the hell did they missed it.
do not tell me you didn't think about your other best friend who you tell everything to would not blame himself and feel guilty because he should've known something was wrong with you.
do not tell me you never think about how your parents would wonder what the hell happened, why did they little girl do it, and having to bring you back from the hospital in a casket instead of in their arms.
do not tell me you never think about how your older brothers would wonder if they were too hard on you, wondering if they were too ignorant of their only little sister, and thinking about those times they held you when you were a baby.
do not tell me you never think about how your nephew and nieces won't understand what happened and they just wondered why did you go away and never came back.
do not tell me your old basketball teammates would not be surprised and each time they passed your old court they did not think about your laugh and all victories and loses and all the things you achieved together in that place.
do not tell me your high school friends and teacher won't shed a tear knowing one of the happiest person they know turns out was the saddest and alone all along and wondering if there was something they could've done.
do not tell me the nice boy you have a crush on would not feel a little bit guilty and wonder if he was one of the reason you did it.
do not tell me how your social media friends won't feel sad and regret not reaching out to you and asking how you were doing because they thought your absence from your account was just due to busy and hectic schedules of college.
do not tell me that your dog didn't wonder about why the person who gave him the most love and belly rubs didn't come home anymore for years.
do not fucking tell me these bullshit about these stars would still appear, the sun would still come out, the Earth will still rotate, and the seasons will still change because without you, none of these people would want any of that to happen.